A lot has happened the last 12 months. My dad’s health deteriorated more rapidly, my mom had some injuries which impeded on her mobility, and last January, my dad died as a result of COPD and pulmonary fibrosis.
We’ve been able to spend a lot of time together in those last months. And although I’m glad that he no longer has to fight for every breath, it leaves a gaping hole, which feels will never fill again. Currently the edges are still sharp, but here and there, they begin to soften, and some plants begin to grow around it.
This also had, and has, an effect on my depression. I do feel, however, that currently my depression isn’t ruling my life, but I’m experiencing it. I can still enjoy things, like sunny days, spending time with friends, spamming others with reels on social media, et cetera.
From what I can tell, not being drowned by depression is due to my medication, and the different kinds of therapy I’ve had since April last year.
Helping to take care of my dad and helping my mom, cost a lot of time and energy. This left very little room for writing blogs. My energy-levels are still not back to (for me) normal, as my body and mind are still processing all that happened the last months.
This year will be for recertification of the Advanced Networking Specialty, and first steps into AI. On the personal level it will be about slowing down, enjoying my life, visiting Scotland again, continuing my coaching training, and making connections to people. Not too many, though. I’m still an introvert ;-)